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/May 2009//June 2009//July 2009//May 2010//April 2014/

Sunday, June 21, 2009

8:15 AM

This blog would not be all about sad stuffs and such,

I would like to say, although it's just a 3 person outing today.

I had fun (: A sense of satisfication.

I went out with my didi, Jianshu, and my xuan-er, wen xuan.

We went out very early in the morning!

We walked from city hall to bugis junction,

although it's not very far, but we walked one big round! HAHA.

I must say I like brass basah complex (:

I'll go there to get my art stuffs, books and music equipments there next time (:

I had fun at the arcade with them! haha (:

Sometimes i feel that, hanging out with guys are better.

But I know nothing is perfect.

I hope i can find a true girl friend.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

6:45 PM

This sucks man, my family is going to have fun at pulau ubin,

I'm gonna bore myself in school for a damn 2 hours meeting.

I don't mind using my time to study in the morning,

because i have a test later.

I want to spend more time studying rather than going for stupid meetings.

Say I'm a loser I don't care.

If not for people like Rc, I would really enjoy my council work.

I would be most willing to go for meetings and events.

But now, I feel that council is like a heavy responsibility tying me down from anything.

But whatever it is, what can I say? Nothing.

I have no choice, I am the president.

President who is facing politics and friendship problems

A president who learnt not to trust hypocrites like C,

and learnt not to trust people who gets easily influenced(like R) by hypocrites(like C)

A president who got betrayed by friends because they are plainly jealous of her.

But whatever it is, if i wanna win, I'll just have to persevere and ACT ALONG WITH THEM FREAKS.

I love the student council so much.

I love R and C to the core.

Friday, June 12, 2009

5:40 AM

Crapper! I studied this year okay! I totally slacked last year but I worked hard this year. So you're blaming me for my bad foundation? You all never discipline me when I'm young! You all never teach me life lessons WHEN I AM YOUNG. Only when i grow older, I talk about life, then you all start discussing crap with me. When you watch TV and see good examples, you take out and say me, say I am not like that. What crap is this. Just SHUT YOUR CRAP UP AND MAKE NO COMMENTS OKAY.

Now say i doing rubbish in the council. I'm experience fucking stress right now, i'm growing with all the stress around me. I studied hard this year and did my very best to manage my time properly, to juggle between my studies and my commitments. But you fucking said i never study. What's this?!?!? Where's the justice man?! Life sucks man. Totally sucks. Face the sucky reality of life. Optimism? forget it....

Just stop it man, stop everything.

I don't feel like doing anything

Monday, June 8, 2009

7:33 AM

Alright! (: The primary school leadership camp is over! And yay yay yay! (: For now it's time to concentrate on YOUTH DAY & the whatsoever united nations competition? Yeaps (:

For now let me talk about the leadership camp. Well, I guess I had a great experience doing administrative stuffs. So not like me right? But I'll do whatever to my best! (: There is still a big room for improvement for the camp (: Well, many things happened in the camp. I'm not gonna specifically mention what is it. But I'll say I was really stupid to have trusted her. She tricked me out of comforting my friend when my friend was feeling down. We were almost there, almost going to be best friends again. But you turned up to spoil everythin. I must say you were, or are really cunning and smart and clever. But I'll not lose to you. I have learnt my lesson. Well, there are so many projects to handle. At the same time other commitments like my CCA, family friends and studies. Last but not least, politics. But it's okay (: I'll learn. I'll grow stronger from all these. I definitely will.

Jasmin, don't mind what others say to demoralize you or stop you from what you are doing. Just do everything to your best. Give in your 100% alright? (: You can do it definitely. You'll be stronger day by day, you'll be smarter as the night passes. Don't ever trust her again, forget about all the good stuffs she did for you. She owe you a big one, she owe you your trust and your love. You owe her not more than she owe you, because your trust and love towards her before was a big deal. She was the one who made things difficults for you, she was the one who made you struggle without a good cause. But still, thank her for making you stronger and smarter. Thank her for making you be more aware of the world(:

However, it just feels so good to not have her around at all. HAHA! evil me (:

Now i am gonna tlak about SLC. It was cooool, it was fun, it was a fruitful experience for me! (: I made new friends and my faculty is very very coool! haha. Although i'm always the one zi-highing, but i enjoyed it! :D I learnt the song LOVE STORY, i learnt to dance HOEDOWN THROWDOWN, i went through really scary formal meetings, and rushed out the action paper for the youth council project. The food they catered was delicious too. Haha (: Well, at least better than the food we cater. haha. They had good logistics and facilities. Name tags, games logistics and such. I heard the OT took 4months to organise this, the facilitators took 4weeks to train and the participants 4 days to bond. so cooool right (:

For now, I shal talk about my heartfelt words from the bottom of my heart. I find myself a bit weird. I'm happy in front of new friends, new found friends, I craze around, I shout, I cheer, I laugh, I'm just happy. But still, deep in my heart lies a dark shadow. No matter how friendly I appear to be, I still realise, I put a boundary between the people around me. Not so much to new friends, but i know after a while, that boundary would start to grow. I don't know why while i'm typing all these, I'm starting to think of my primary school friends. I feel that I could trust them the most, but also i won't tell them too much. I tend to close myself from my council mates. especially the executive committee. As betrayal or backstabbing can happen anytime. It's just so scary. So I choose to have a gap between me and them. I have given up on R, because she don't seem to care about me too. I shall not bother anymore, it just makes me feel more tired. I don't mind being alone, I dont' care if I'm alone. I'll still maintain my pride and dignity.

But no matter what, please smile more Jasmin :)