I hate her. Seriously hate her, I didn't expect her to be such a person. I trusted her, I loved her. But she gave me that treatment of backstabbing, and influencing the people around me in a abd way. Influencing my loved ones. Where's my girl? Where's my boy? All at her side. I love my girl. I love my boy. But what happened now? They're puppets of her, she manipulating and influencing their minds. She can really act and influence. She is really smart. What's wrong with her? Ie she jealous or what? Can she just trash it out face to face with me? What I'm doing now is the same thing she is doing. Acting in front of her. What the hell happened? To me? I so don't wanna be like her. I was alone, I'm not sure about now. But it's hard to trust anyone. I guess I can only tell mommy about everything that is happening to me. I have to protect myself.

About my most beloved innocent and naive girl, I have that small hatred towards her for being stupid and dumb to be manipulated by that evil and cruel lady who dances. I want her back. I need her back. That's how i feel. But at the same time, I hate her a little. I hate her. I need her back. We promised each other to be there for each other. Maybe what I did was wrong.

If you'd let me choose. I'd rather be a normal student than to be the president of the student council. But It's all done now. I have to walk through this. No choice. All the best to me. Really. Go Jane., You can do it. It's better to trust yourself. Don't trust anyone. Face the cruel world of reality. Don't be kind to your enemies, or you would be cruel to yourself. Rose, where are you? Is it over? All over? Should I forgive you? I don't know. Because I hate you for doing this to me. But should I blame you? You're not in my shoes so you don't know. But maybe god is punishing me for taking you for granted just now. But is it considered that you backstabbed me? I loved you, you said you loved me too. But what's with us now? It's all lies. Or have you just forgotten. Have you really lost your mind and got influenced by her? What's it with that bitch that she's so good in influencing people that my dear cocky is so into her too? Has he forgotten me too? I miss you rose and cocky. I really do. I'm like living in my own world now. I have to be more clever in order to protect myself. All the way Jane.